The Time I Lost it All.
I miss blogging. I feel like anytime I start a “personal” blog it starts this way.
Driven: Jawbreaker: Doesn’t matter much, everyone is out of touch…
This has been a hard year. Like Saturn return hard. I meant to ask Nic about that. Speaking of which it was recently my best friend bday. Once again happy birthday Nic.
Of all the things I regret in life, which honestly I don’t have many, it’s moving so far away from Nic. There is very little left for me in Pennsylvania, and every time I go return home I feel there’s even less than the last time I was there. Save for a few people, Nic at the top of the list I don’t have a heavy desire to return there.
Stick: ALL: Kick back on the sofa put my feet up
I’m isolating myself right now from company. Amanda’s sister is here, the two of them hanging on the couch a few feet over making travel plans for their Grandmother. Feels like they’re about three blocks away right now. I’m sequestered myself, head phones and introversion. I’m castle in the middle of a desert.
I’ve come to analyze my introverted nature more recently and really fucking wish someone had shown me the way a long time ago.
This is not a Photograph: mission of burma: This is not a photograph…
40 years old and I honestly still often feel 16, like that’s all i’ve learned, that’s as far as I’ve grown, matured, journeyed emotionally…
I Was Wrong: Social Distortion: the only one I hurt was me…
Back to the beginning Venizzini, I was talking about how horrible this year was not the 34 in-between. I got fired, let go from a new job that hadn’t even started. Then I got let go from my main freelance gig, the lifeline that basically kept me clinging on, scraping by and just living hand to mouth.
I’ve actually never been fired in my life, I quit a lot of jobs but never been fired and now two back to back.
I was angry for a day or so each time and then really I was relieved. I wasn’t happy with either job and there is always unwanted stress that comes with any job, whether you like it or not. But honestly in both scenarios there were people I did not want to deal with, and now I don’t have to. So that’s a win.
I’m freaking out about just how we’ll pay our rent in a month, but also I’m excited there seems to be a land of opportunity unfolding before me. If I can just catch the right length of canvas before it whips past in the wind.http://www.samproof.tv/2014/04/21/time-lost/https://i2.wp.com/www.samproof.tv/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Generic-Header-Thumb-with-LOGO.png?fit=640%2C390https://i2.wp.com/www.samproof.tv/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Generic-Header-Thumb-with-LOGO.png?fit=150%2C91Lifeblog,craveonline,editing,jobs,life bloggingI miss blogging. I feel like anytime I start a 'personal' blog it starts this way. Driven: Jawbreaker: Doesn't matter much, everyone is out of touch... This has been a hard year. Like Saturn return hard. I meant to ask Nic about that. Speaking of which it was recently my best...SamProofSamProof firstname.lastname@example.orgAdministratorGoogle+ | twitter Sam Proof is an Actor, Writer and Filmmaker.Sam Proof